For this season, I wanted to offer something that isn’t about numbers — but about access, remembrance, and resonance.
That’s why from December 15 to 22, I’m offering The Acorn at its lowest possible price — just enough to keep the book flowing, but far below any profit-minded pricing.
Why?
Because there’s something sacred about this season.
About giving without expecting. About words that open doors.
About stories that stir soul memory.
Here are the prices for this one week:
eBook: $0.99 (was $7.49)
Paperback: $9.99 (was $14.99)
Hardcover: $14.99 (was $21.49)
It’s not a discount.
It’s a gift — of space, of story, of soul-seeding.
Take it, share it, sit with it.
Sometimes the deepest generosity is in how we let truth move through us.
For 41 years, Jorge lived behind walls.
A sea turtle held in captivity since the 1980s, far from the ocean his body was shaped for, and the currents his soul remembered. His world was small. Still. Artificial. For decades, there was no salt in the water. No tide. No stars above.
But in 2025, Jorge was finally released.
And in just 70 days, he swam more than 1,700 miles through the Atlantic—
toward Brazil, toward the rhythm, toward himself.
He didn’t hesitate. He didn’t need to ask the way.
He just… knew.
At nearly 60 years old—after four decades of confinement—Jorge, a turtle, remembered.
This is what moved me most.
That nature doesn’t forget.
That even when instincts go silent, they don’t disappear. They wait.
And sometimes, when given the chance—
even a being long removed from its element
will slip back into flow like nothing was ever lost.
Isn’t that what happens to us, too?
Maybe you’ve felt it:
That stirring under the surface when you hear music that feels like home.
That ache when your feet touch the earth barefoot.
That quiet whisper at night: “You were meant for more than this.”
Jorge’s story reminds me that healing isn’t about becoming something new—
it’s about remembering what’s already there.
That even if you’ve spent years in a life that wasn’t truly yours—
in routines that dulled you,
in systems that tamed you—
something inside you still knows how to return.
You haven’t lost the way.
You’ve just been away from it.
If Jorge—a turtle—can remember the sea after 41 years of silence,
then maybe you, too, can remember the ocean within you.
The one you were born for.
The one that’s been waiting.
Not everyone believed Jorge would survive out there.
He was old.
Out of practice.
Too long in the tank.
But the moment the crate opened—he moved.
As if life had been holding its breath for that very moment.
And maybe that’s how it is for us, too.
The moment you say yes—
life rushes in.
Not to teach you—but to reawaken you.
Because you were never really lost.
Only sleeping.
So if you’ve been feeling the pull—
toward something freer, truer, more alive—
follow it.
You don’t need to know how.
Just turn toward it.
The tide will show you the rest.
You may not be a turtle.
But the ocean still remembers you.
And it’s calling you home.
We like to believe that envy is about others — about their fame, beauty, or success. But envy, at its core, is never about them. It’s about the parts of ourselves we’ve left unexplored, unloved, or forgotten.
The world doesn’t provoke us to punish us. It reflects us. It holds up a mirror to what we’ve denied within. Every reaction, every judgment, every wave of jealousy — is simply life whispering, “Here is where you’ve abandoned your own light.”
The Mirror Effect of Success
When someone rises, we see more than their achievement — we see our own limitation. The higher they climb, the more clearly we glimpse the mountain we’ve refused to ascend.
Take the story of a young Hungarian athlete — professional football player Szoboszlai Dominik. His focus, his discipline, and his courage to live his purpose have made him a symbol of success. Yet, when you read the comment sections beneath his victories, something deeper unfolds. The applause is there, yes — but so is the projection. The envy. The quiet resentment.
Because his dedication confronts something uncomfortable: the part in us that didn’t dare to give everything. His light reminds us of our own excuses.
We don’t dislike his success. We dislike the reflection of our own unlived potential.
Envy Is Not Evil — It’s Information
Envy is not proof of weakness. It’s a message. It shows us where our energy has been trapped — in comparison, regret, or fear. It asks us to look closer, to meet the version of ourselves that still believes we are less.
When you feel that sting of jealousy, pause. Don’t push it away. Listen. Beneath that emotion lies longing — not for what they have, but for the part of you that’s ready to awaken.
As Carl Jung once said: “Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.”
From Comparison to Creation
Every soul journey begins the same way — with a mirror. You can use it to compare, or you can use it to transform. The moment you stop judging another’s path and start walking your own, the reflection changes.
Because the truth is this: you were never meant to replicate anyone’s success. You were meant to embody your own.
The world doesn’t need more critics. It needs more creators. More people who dare to act on the spark that envy first revealed.
So next time you feel the mirror burn — don’t look away.
Look closer. Because the person you envy is not ahead of you — they’re showing you what’s possible for you.
The mirror never lies.
It only asks: “Are you ready to see what’s been waiting inside you all along?”
— Steve Avan
Sometimes, the world shows us our wings before we remember we have them.
We spend so much of our lives fighting what we don’t want.
The people who trigger us. The jobs that drain us. The fears that seem to live rent-free in our minds.
And yet… no one, standing at the edge of their life, ever says:
“I wish I’d worried more.” “I wish I’d spent more time scrolling.” “I wish I’d stayed longer in that toxic loop.”
Still, that’s how most of us live — locked in a constant inner battle with what is.
We call it trying to change. But often, it’s just resistance wearing the mask of growth.
The Illusion of Control
From the moment we’re born, we’re taught to fix things. If something hurts — fix it. If something breaks — fix it.
If someone doesn’t love you — become someone who earns it.
But energy doesn’t work that way. Because what we fight, we feed.
Attention is energy, and energy doesn’t judge — it simply amplifies what it’s given.
So the more you fight what you don’t want, the more real it becomes.
It’s not punishment. It’s physics — and it’s consciousness.
What “Allowing” Really Means
Allowing isn’t passivity. It’s presence. It’s the moment you stop tightening against life and start breathing with it.
It’s not saying, “I agree with this.” It’s saying, “I see this — and I choose not to fight it anymore.”
When you resist something, you tie your energy to it; you keep it alive through your attention.
But when you allow it — not approve, not endorse, simply allow — it begins to dissolve.
You stop feeding it. You stop being its anchor.
The Energetic Shift
The next time you find yourself in conflict — with a person, a thought, or a situation — pause.
Notice where your energy tightens: your shoulders, your stomach, your throat.
Then ask softly: “What if I stopped fighting this?”
You’ll feel a subtle shift. The energy that was tangled in tension begins to flow again.
That’s what healing actually feels like.
Peace Isn’t a Goal — It’s What Remains
We’ve been taught to chase peace, to work for happiness, to deserve love.
But peace isn’t something you earn. It’s what’s left when you stop resisting.
You don’t have to fix the noise — you only have to stop becoming it.
In the quiet that follows, you realize something extraordinary:
You were never broken. You were only holding on too tightly.
Let go. Let life move through you. And let peace find its way back home.
A paper boat floating quietly on water — a symbol of letting go and trusting the flow.
They say the truth will set you free. But what if you never say it?
What if you learned, long ago, that love is earned by silence? What if you were rewarded, not for honesty, but for obedience?
And so, you smile when you’re breaking. You nod when you disagree. You say “it’s fine” when it’s anything but.
The world calls it kindness. But your body knows better.
The Spiritual Cost of Pleasing Everyone
There’s a moment most of us can recall: We wanted to say something. Something honest. But we hesitated. What if they misunderstand? What if they pull away?
So we swallowed the truth. Again. And again. And again.
Each unspoken truth becomes a weight. And the body carries what the mind won’t.
In GNM (German New Medicine), the throat often becomes the battleground for these inner wars. Conflicts tied to self-expression, the inability to speak one’s truth, or the fear of not being heard can manifest as chronic throat issues: recurring sore throats, tension, thyroid imbalances, even voice loss.
Not as punishment. But as a signal. A whisper that says: “There is something in you that longs to be heard.”
Truth is Not Violence
Many of us fear that speaking up will make us unkind. But there’s a difference between truth and attack. You can be honest and still be gentle. You can disagree without disconnecting.
And more than that: You can learn to hear your own voice before you worry about who else does.
A Soft Return to Yourself
The journey back to your voice doesn’t begin with shouting. It begins with listening.
When you notice that familiar tightness in your throat… Pause. Breathe. Ask gently: “What am I not saying?”
Let that question sit. Let it echo. And let it guide you back to the truth that’s been waiting.
You are not here to be agreeable. You are here to be whole.
And the world doesn’t need your perfection. It needs your presence.
It seems spirituality is everywhere now. Wrapped in golden filters and wise-sounding captions, it’s become fashionable to be “awake.”
And yet, something about it feels… off.
Not because the essence of spirituality has changed. But because the way it’s being performed has.
There is a growing wave of voices online who declare themselves spiritual, yet speak with the tone of authority usually reserved for dogma. “This is how you manifest. This is how your vibration works. This is the only truth.” They speak not from the space of experience, but from a need to instruct, control, or belong.
The irony? In trying so hard to prove their spiritual identity, they abandon the very freedom it offers.
True spirituality was never about rules. It was never about methods. It was never a brand.
It was always an invitation.
A return.
A remembering.
The Paradox of the “Spiritual Rulebook”
Some of the loudest voices in today’s spiritual spaces are unknowingly recreating the very systems they claim to have broken free from. They’ve replaced religion with rituals, institutions with influencers, and dogma with trending reels.
They say things like:
“If you’re not doing shadow work, you’re bypassing.”
“You must align your chakras every full moon or you’re out of sync.”
“If you don’t believe in X, you’re not really awake.”
This isn’t liberation. It’s performance.
And performance, while it can inspire, cannot free you.
The soul doesn’t awaken through comparison. It softens through honesty.
What Does Authentic Spirituality Feel Like?
It’s quiet.
It’s personal.
It’s often messy, nonlinear, and full of questions no one else can answer for you.
It doesn’t shout. It listens. It learns. It humbles.
It may share tools, but never tells you which ones to use. It may speak truths, but never insists they must be yours.
It doesn’t care how many books you’ve read, or how many past lives you’ve remembered. It cares how deeply you’re willing to be with yourself, in silence, in discomfort, in love.
So What Now?
Perhaps it’s time we stop trying to be spiritual and start being honest.
Not everyone will resonate with your truth. Not everyone has to. The soul’s path isn’t a campaign. It’s a quiet revolution.
And maybe the most spiritual thing you can do today is this:
Let go of the rulebook.
Come back to your breath.
And remember:
The truth doesn’t need to shout. It just needs space.
There’s something within you that was never lost. Not something you had to become – but something you’ve always been. Like a small acorn, unaware that it holds an entire forest inside. And then one day, it feels the light. The call. And it begins.
This is your inner core.
Not your personality. Not what you’ve achieved or learned. But your essence – the divine pattern that responds not to opinions, but to presence. The space where you stop trying to fix yourself – and simply remember that you were whole all along.
Activating your inner core is not a loud process. In fact, it often begins in silence. A deep breath. A moment when you stop trying to understand – and simply feel. That you are enough. And that your path doesn’t start outside you – it begins within.
What does this look like in everyday life?
It doesn’t mean withdrawing from the world. It means seeing the noise of the world as a mirror. It means realizing that external struggle often reveals what flows naturally through you. That what others wrestle with – might be exactly what’s asking to be recognized in you.
“The question always arises: ‘But what should I look for?’
What helped me was allowing the noise of the world to be a guide — because it always reflects something back.
It shows you what feels effortless, what’s in your rhythm. What feels like second nature to you — while others around you find it hard.
Maybe it’s time to simply acknowledge: ‘I’m good at this.’
What is it you love doing — so much that you’d do it even if no one ever paid you?
Maybe you never studied it. Or you picked it up so quickly, it felt like it was already in your bones.
That’s the thing. Sometimes your calling doesn’t arrive with a thunderclap. It whispers. Through the ease that lives inside you.”
This isn’t about becoming someone new. It’s about becoming fully who you’ve always been.
The inner core doesn’t need to search. It only wants to unfold.
And once it begins… you won’t become someone else — you’ll become you.
In a world filled with constant notifications, noise, and endless demands for our attention, it’s easy to lose touch with the quiet space within us — our inner core. Yet, this core holds the essence of who we are: peaceful, centered, and deeply aware. Reconnecting with this space isn’t just a spiritual luxury — it’s a path back to clarity, meaning, and presence.
Why We Lose Touch with Our Inner Self
When everything around us is moving fast, we begin to seek answers outside ourselves. We scroll, search, ask, and react — forgetting that the most truthful guidance comes not from the world, but from within. Our inner core is always present, but it requires quiet to be heard.
Signs You’ve Disconnected from Your Inner Core:
Constant mental restlessness
Feeling “lost” or without clear direction
Anxiety in silence
Overwhelm even during rest
3 Ways to Reconnect with Your Inner Core
1. Embrace Intentional Stillness
Even 5 minutes a day of quiet, without input, can begin to re-tune your awareness inward. Try sitting without music, screens, or tasks — and simply breathe. Let your nervous system exhale.
2. Listen to the Body, Not Just the Mind
Your body is a reflection of your inner truth. Notice where tension gathers. Ask: “What is this sensation trying to tell me?” Often, the answer isn’t verbal — it’s intuitive.
3. Ask Soulful Questions
Instead of “What should I do?”, try: “What do I truly need right now?” or “What am I avoiding that’s actually calling me home?”
The Seed is Still There
You don’t have to create your inner core — you only have to remember it. Just like an acorn carries the potential of an entire oak tree, your true self is intact within you, waiting for space to grow. The Acorn was written as a reminder of that truth.
So pause. Turn inward. And knock on the door that has always been slightly open.
The Acorn: a guide back to what you’ve always known
Are you feeling lost — not just in the world, but in yourself?
If you’re standing at a crossroads, uncertain of who you are, why you’re here, or what to do next, you’re not alone.
We live in a world of rising chaos, but what hurts more than external noise is the silence inside: that haunting sense of disconnection from your inner compass.
This isn’t just confusion. It’s what many are now calling a spiritual identity crisis.
Too Many Voices, Not Enough Truth
We live in an age where help is everywhere — and yet, clarity is rare.
“5 Steps to Heal Your Childhood”
“This One Mindset Trick Will Change Your Life”
“How I Found My Purpose in 24 Hours”
The coaching world is booming. Mentors, masterminds, motivational funnels — they’re everywhere. And most mean well.
But the truth? We’re drowning in answers that don’t really answer anything.
Because the problem isn’t your lack of knowledge. The problem is you’re looking outside yourself for a knowing that only lives within.
“You’ve knocked on many doors. Maybe this one doesn’t open outward. Maybe it opens inward — and you’ve had the key all along.”
Why the World Is So Loud Right Now
The world is echoing an unhealed core belief:
“I am not enough.”
This belief fuels:
Overconsumption of content
Addiction to self-help
The endless chase for the next technique, the next transformation
And beneath it all? A soul that’s not broken… just tired.
What If You Didn’t Need Another Answer?
Let this land:
What if… you didn’t need another program, another practice, another guru?
What if the moment you stopped searching, you started remembering?
What if the only thing you truly need is to return to what you’ve always carried — but have forgotten how to hear?
The Acorn: A Key, Not a System
The Acorn doesn’t give you a new system. It reconnects you to the truth you’ve always known.
No fluff. No spiritual performance. Just a grounded space to finally hear yourself again.
It won’t give you the answer. It will help you remember that you already know.
Three Signs You’re Ready to Come Home to Yourself
You’re exhausted by the noise. You’ve tried many paths — now, you’re craving peace.
You feel both lost and strangely ready. There’s no clarity, but there’s a deep sense that something is shifting.
You’re not afraid to face yourself anymore. You sense the answers are not out there — they’re in here.
You Already Hold the Key
You’ve knocked on many doors. You’ve spent time, money, energy.
But maybe the door you’ve really been looking for… doesn’t open outward.
Maybe it opens inward. And you’ve had the key all along.
Ready to return?
The Acorn is that key. Available now in Kindle, paperback, and hardcover editions.
There are books that don’t try to teach you — they simply help you remember.
The Acorn is one of those books. A call back to the self. A whisper for those who may have forgotten what it feels like to want to live again.
At the heart of this book, there is a passage that distills the message into three lines:
“The future doesn’t begin later — it begins now, within you.”
“You don’t need to defeat the past — just stop choosing it.”
“Your greatest power is what you give your attention to today.”
These words are for those who have tried to begin again — again and again. And for those who may have stopped trying altogether.
The Past Is Not a Prison — Unless You Keep It Alive
So many live under the weight of old stories. Loss. Pain. Failures. The miracles that never arrived. But your past isn’t your sentence. It’s a memory. You don’t need to conquer it — you just need to stop choosing it again and again.
Real power isn’t found in how many battles you’ve survived. It lives in what you choose now. Not tomorrow. Not when you’re finally “better.” But right now.
The Body Listens to the Soul
When you choose to live again, your body listens. Your cells respond. They begin a quiet repair — not just physically, but spiritually. The mind and body crave alignment, and healing starts the moment you give yourself permission to hope again.
In The Acorn, you’ll find practices and gentle guidance to reconnect with your inner rhythm. Not medical advice. Not magic. But clarity and remembrance. For the physical self. And for the soul.
The Soul Just Wants to Return Home
When your strength returns, something deeper stirs. The soul begins to come home. Not to who you used to be — but to who you always were beneath the stories. The one who can still believe.
Some say everything happens in the mind. But really, everything begins with attention.
“Your greatest power is what you give your attention to today.”
And if today, you give your attention to life — it begins again. If you focus on healing, paths appear. If you listen to the voice of your soul, you begin to come home.
Because you must still live. Not because it’s easy. But because it is still possible.
And maybe someone still believes in you. Maybe it’s only us, for now. But that’s enough.
The Acorn is a gentle invitation to return to yourself. And if you’ve read this far, maybe your future has already begun.
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The Acorn – Discovering Your Inner Core 